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Nov. 24th, 2009 | 11:18 pm
posted by: livelovewrite in genderqrvanity

Hey, everyone,

Haven't posted in a while. But I thought this video might appeal to this community.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tIqPzww25c&feature=channel

xo,
Carson

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I'm new.

Feb. 19th, 2009 | 03:14 am
mood: calmcalm
music: Radiohead - Planet Telex | Powered by Last.fm
posted by: 37307_01 in genderqrvanity

Hi everyone! I'm Tommy, 21, and living in NYC [well, Brooklyn]. Someone amazing recently gave me his old binder for free out of nowhere, and it's the first one I've ever owned. I feel pretty amazing.

I had originally posted this in ftmvanity but was pointed to this community, and I'm so happy to have found it! Very awesome.

pictures, yes, i've got those.Collapse )

Ok, lots of pictures, yeah. Forgive me, I'm just really excited. It's almost hard to believe that a relatively simple piece of clothing could be so mind-altering and life-changing. I feel so, so much more comfortable with myself when I'm wearing it. I've accepted the fact that I'll always be generally feminine-looking, but having breasts just. I knew it made me feel uncomfortable, but I guess I didn't realize how MUCH of a personal improvement it would be to see myself flat-chested. I never bound before I got this, except for a couple of instances when i was desperate and used ace bandages [which are badbadbad, yes]. I may not wear it daily, but I'm sure that I will wear it the majority of the time at least for a good long while, and even just knowing I have it as an option is so comforting.

Blah blah blah talking! Too much talking.

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Would I ever make a real boy?

Jan. 31st, 2009 | 07:45 pm
posted by: anomalee in genderqrvanity

Pinnochio did it.
Straight people call me sir a lot, but anyone who's really concentrating probably can tell I was born female...


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Making sense of the crap in my head

Jan. 23rd, 2009 | 08:52 am
mood: anxiousanxious
posted by: scottyaz in genderqrvanity

Hi all,

I'm Scotty or Scott. I stumbled onto this journal via Google reader. I'm a female-bodied genderqueer who has been thinking/obsessing about transitioning FtM. Right now the only real obstacle is my relationship with my girlfriend. I don't want to lose her over something as stupid as gender. And yet I feel pushed by some unknown internal force driving me toward some semblance of manhood.

I've thought about that most frailest of hopes that maybe she would stay with me, even if I did transition. But a few months ago I had hinted at participating in a local drag king show, she didn't exactly warm to the idea. She doesn't have a problem with other people transitioning. One of our friends is a transguy. She just doesn't seem to want to be with someone who is.

Any way, my job situation may make all of that moot, as I've been offered a job out of town that would require me to move. I'd really like to take the job because the money is better and it's with a city government. But she doesn't want to go anywhere. Of course, they would be hiring me as "Sarah", my legal name. So really, at this point, I don't know which end is up in my life.

Any way, thanks for letting me rant.

Scotty

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Jan. 21st, 2009 | 02:37 am
posted by: leolapyre in genderqrvanity

Hey, I'm Leo and I'm 23 year-old grad student that sometimes makes posts on Livejournal when my attempts at sleep have failed. I question my gender identity daily and often wonder if my gender "deviance" is due to nature, nurture, both, or just completely fabricated in my head. There are some days that I'm really enthusiastic about the prospect of taking testosterone for an indefinite amount of time to masculine my features, and other days that I don't really see the point in doing that. Whatever the case, I've been feeling comfortable presenting in a masculine fashion for the past couple of years, and have only recently started introducing myself to others with a masculine name. We'll see where that goes.

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I'm freaking out about this.

Jan. 17th, 2009 | 02:49 am
posted by: anomalee in genderqrvanity

I've been thinking of myself as more trans/gender queer and less butch lesbian for a few years now, but I've been afraid to really act on my feelings or talk about them with anyone.
It's getting really disturbing. I think I need to talk to other people who feel or have felt this way. I'm have a sort of self-loathing about it I think. Like, if I'm even thinking about this, I must be nuts, so totally fucked up, but I've been thinking about it a long time. I feel like I'd be so much more at home in my body without my breasts. They're constantly ruining the lines of my shirts and ties. There were small when I was younger, but they're annoyingly big now.

I'm 43 and never really heard that ftm transitioning was being done until the last ten years or so. Geraldine became Jerry in Dykes to Watch Out for. When was that? At that time it still seemed so taboo to me. I guess it still does in a way, but part of me is screaming, you can do this now. It's okay. It's a time in history where this great shift is happening. Trans people are coming out into the open. But I've lived 43 years in the role of butch dyke and it's a lot safer. But whoever want to be safe? What kind of goal is that?

Well, more rambling at my journal if anyone is interested.

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Know any queer rural zines? x-post (if this doesn't belong/breaks rules, sorry; tell me&I'll delete)

Dec. 20th, 2008 | 12:22 am
mood: hopefulhopeful
posted by: angstypenguin in genderqrvanity

Sorry if this doesn't belong here, but my friend Jenna (a.k.a. trashcan_chica) needs some help:

"does anyone know of any queer zines about living in rural areas or going to rural areas?

any help/pointing in the right direction would be amazing. i went through the whole Queer Zine Archive and couldn't really find anything.

thanks!
jenna b

p.s. i just got a wordpress site, sassyfrasscircus.com!"


Her (AIM) away message also says: "is looking for zines about/by members of radical queer ANTI-URBAN communities, so if you know of any..."

So please comment if you can help at all; thanks. :]

-Beth

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No one's posted in awhile

Aug. 4th, 2008 | 05:42 pm
mood: contentcontent
posted by: loveistragical in genderqrvanity

But never fear, I got a burst of vanity today so I took some pictures.
Unfortunately I can't get past looking "cute" in all my photos.


Sad thing is I actually took 52 pictures....my photobucket is probably dying, I have over 700 images of myself just in that one folder not to mention my old photos and group pictures. I feel too vain :(

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Introducing myself

Jul. 21st, 2008 | 11:12 pm
mood: contentcontent
posted by: loveistragical in genderqrvanity

Hi, everyone...:]

I'm Jasmine and I'm 19 years old as of the end of this month. I typically go by Fire on the internet...but feel free to call me whatever you wish. I'm going to school to become an English teacher. Literature is my passion, followed by film. I wish I could make movies for a living, but I'm not talented enough. I also write and sing in an acoustic band..I do karaoke locally as well. I'm a huge fan of Rock Band. I absolutely adore meeting new people but I am quite shy in person.

I'm mostly what you'd call gender-neutral, because honestly, I dress however I feel like. Some days I go all the way and wear makeup. Other days, I'm as masculine as possible. Unfortunately I am big-breasted so it's really hard to hide that. I do sometimes get mistaken for a guy anyway. I just got new glasses today too and I really like them :)

Anyway I was nervous about joining this community but I live in a small town and there is no one like me here....so it's really hard to talk about this kind of stuff with others. So, yeah.

I just got a digital camera recently so I'm glad I'm not the only one who spends half of my time snapping pictures of myself. I also got a video camera for my birthday so I'm making a lot of videos. I'm in the process of making a documentary about sexuality...








I have lots more but now I feel significantly self-centered.

xoxo
Fire

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Jun. 27th, 2008 | 09:44 pm
posted by: lady_silver2267 in genderqrvanity

So I thought maybe I should introduce myself.
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